I am feel a little inadequate....ok so not just a little A LOT.
I should be able to perform all the duties of a SAHM with efficiency and grace but I just can't hack it. My laundry is pretty much done but my kids rooms look like a tornado has hit them and has for the past several months...ok pretty much 2 yrs since we've move here. I still haven't painted them like I've been saying I would. My room is a mess. There is a dead animal in our shower floor. (my hair that is). I need to work on the flower beds and just stuff.
That's just the house....now to the kids. We play way to much Mario Kart. They don't brush there teeth on a regular basis(C I hope you aren't reading this and Jennifer please don't tell her). My daughter doesn't sleep in her bed--she sleeps on the couch. They do have clean clothes and get a shower every other night. My very bright 6 yr old made a 71% on his spelling test....I was furious. He missed NOT, HOP and TUB. He knows them he was just in too big of a hurry. He got on Blue at school yesterday b/c he wasn't following directions and didn't pass his reading counts test. He doesn't want to do school work when he gets home. I guess most kids are like that. I'm trying make him learn on his own b/c he doesn't like to fail. I've got to get my stuff together b/c that's what I feel like that I'm FAILING!
Failing at being a WIFE, MOM, MAID, ETC. I will tell you what I'm good at. I can read a book in no time flat! I just tune everything else out and focus only on the book. I'm also good at Knitting and Sewing. I love spending time withe FABRIC and YARN.
My sweet husband works so hard 60-80 hrs a week and what do I give him in return...NOTHING! This time of the year I just do my own thing and it's not fair to him. He works so hard to provide for us but I'm not fulfilling my end of the bargain.
I've read some books about the Amish and I think....Wow! How do those women do it. They did it all!!!! Little House of the Prairie is another reminder of that. I want to be MA. She did it all! I just can't seem to get the hang of it. Am I too lazy? Not disciplined enough? I think it's a combination of both. So know that I've laid out the problem for all to see I have to find a way to fix it.
I apologize for being so down....it's a gloomy day out and I didn't sleep real good on the oversized chair from 3:00 on b/c my daughter woke up and had soaked through her pullup.
I need to focus on this verse when it comes to being disciplined...
WHOEVER LOVES DISCIPLINE LOVES KNOWLEDGE, BUT HE WHO HATES CORRECTION IS STUPID. Proverbs 19:24
I know that I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STREGTHENS ME!!!
No School, No Work!
6 years ago